Just before writing this, I was:
Chilling and having a homemade breakfast.
This past month, I achieved:
- Doing two more tech talks at work, and learning a bunch in the process
- Seams in C# for my team
- Went to two concerts
- Alex Lahey 🤘
- Got sick again
- Went to two meetups:
- Women in product management
- IxDA Sydney chapter
- Started ANOTHER few books
- Flow: The Psychology of Optimal Experience
- A book on Buddhism whose name escapes me at the moment
- Kept reading
This past month, I learned:
To recognise the brain’s amazing ability to trick itself into believing that thoughts will translate directly into reality. This didn’t sink in until I’d read Dan Harris’ “10% Happier” and started catching my mind making terribly grim conclusions about things that were highly unlikely to come true.
This whole jumping-to-conclusions rang true when I had a second recurrence of tonsillitis, just two weeks after being hospitalised for it. When I woke up last Monday with swollen tonsils, I immediately jumped to assume that I would end up with quincy again, and that I’d have to go through all the horror from last time.
I had regular panic episodes throughout the time, but slowly adjusted to becoming okay with the possibility of ending up in hospital. Part of this was consciously controlling the things I could control: organising a list of things I’d need if I did have to go to hospital again, resting as much as I could, and doing activities that I enjoyed.
In the end, I recovered enough by Thursday that I was back to work on Friday, albeit with a date set to get my tonsils out. 15th of May is that date, so I’m bracing myself, but I’m confident that it will be all okay - and maybe even better.
Throughout, it’s been important to note that though I had convinced myself that I would end up in hospital within days, that never happened - it was entirely a fabrication of my mind. Slowly accepting the uncertainty of life is going to be huge for dealing with these situations going forward.
This past month, I got bored of:
But that’s OK, because I enjoyed:
Listening to and observing birds in natural spaces, whether that’s in the park around my house, or the Blue Mountains.
Today, something that made me happy was:
Coffee and hangs with the parents ☕️
Today, something I could’ve done better was:
Increased patience with my mum’s inability to use technology; it’s getting worse every time I visit I swear…
Tomorrow I’m going to:
Go to work and maybe go for a brisk walk when I get home.
In May, I’m looking forward to:
- Getting my tonsils out
- My friend’s graduation party
- Eurovision (five years of Eurovision parties with my uni friends!)
- There’s a 30-year anniversary dinner for the university degree I completed, so I guess that’ll be a bit of fun
In May, I’m going to make the positive change of:
Meditating every day for ten minutes. Earlier this week, I downloaded an app called Streaks, that has the explicit goal of getting you into regular habits.
One thing on my to-do list is:
Finishing the book on Flow!
One happy photo from the past month is:
This adorable latte-art-adorned coffee!
After this post, I’m going to:
Go help my parents move furniture around upstairs! Fun times.